I'm not as fat as I thought I was . . .

but I'm not anywhere close to where I was five years ago.

Interesting how that works. I got out all of my summer clothes today from the attic and put them away. It was quite an interesting experience since I didn't even get them out last year. For those of you who don't know, I was pregnant last summer and gave birth in July so there was no need to even try to find those things last year. So almost two years and a pregnancy it has been since I have seen these clothes. I remembered many of them and some were surprises, partly because they were haunting me from summers past. How long do you keep clothes in hopes you will once again squeeze into them? Yea yea I know the old six months or two years rules but really, lets be realistic. There are a lot of good and cute clothes in there. I would love to be able to wear them again and some for the first time because they were purchased in the hope that I would be thinner the next summer. Ha! I was encouraged that pretty much everything from two summers ago still fit. From three or four summers ago, not so much. So in some ways I was feeling really good about myself and in others I was feeling a bit portly.

So this is what I decided to do - Clothes that were less than half my age went back in the box. Clothes that fit but you could see every nook and cranny on my fanny went in the bureau behind the dog bed. And the stuff that fit went in the closet. It is April, I think I could be comfortably in the clothes in the bureau behind the dog if I lost ten pounds. There are a lot of months of hot heat before they go back in the attic, I should be able to do ten pounds over the next four months, shouldn't I? (yes, yes, I know I need to do more etc etc but I think this is a possible goal. Heck, I lost ten pounds two ounces in a matter of minutes last July . . .) So that is my goal, by August sometime, lose ten pounds so I can wear the clothes that will be covered in dog fur by then in September, just in time to put them away.

Also, something I contemplated while trying to squeeze into a few things today - Does the attic heat shrink your clothes? Especially over two years? I think it might, maybe there should be a study, or maybe there shouldn't and I will just say that it does . . .

What day is it?

So how did it get to be Saturday night. So much for posting everyday. I didn't even make it a week . . . just as bad as any diet I've ever tried. Sheeesh. Mildly disappointing. So what to report. Not much of anything really. Been the usual. Get up feed the kid, have kid fight taking her bottle, try waiting it out, give in and feed kid food food and kid eats like she hasn't been feed in days, try to get kid to take a nap, succeed for a mere thirty minutes, get the kid, play and play some more, try a sneak attack with the bottle to feed the kid, success until she bats it away after only a half ounce or so, fight kid with bottle again, give in and let her starve, play some more, let her play on her own in the playpen, rescue screaming child, try bottle again - no success, put down for yet another power nap (45 minutes or less), don't do anything productive during nap (watch Martha Stewart rerun and feel like less of a woman/mom and get energized just in time - ), kid wakes screaming from nap, play with kid, feed kid dinner again to a starving child, try to make and eat dinner while hot to no avail, get kid in tubby, get kid clean, lotion jammies etc, try to read book but fighting with kid to read pages while she tries to eat said book, try for one last bottle of the day, moderate success but then fighting the bottle so put her to bed, screaming begins, let her scream for a little while, can't take screaming, go put goodie back in mouth and soothe, go listen to screams again, go put in goodie and rock, go listen to screams again, try bottle and eats like she hasn't eaten since the womb, put goodie in mouth and put to bed again, silence, go sit on the couch for an hour, check on child three times, contemplate taking shower, child wakes, go put goodie in mouth and soothe, wait on couch, worry that something is wrong, check on her - looks like angel sleeping, take shower, check on kid - still an angel, write blog post and worry what the night ahead has for her . . .

Much Accomplished . . . Somehow

How the heck did it happen? I got a lot of stuff on the list done in the last couple of days. Humph. When did I get productive? I think it is becasue I put it out there that I was being lazy. Anyway, I bought plants, planted almost all my containers, got the garden tilled (thanks Dad!) and some other stuff. More than I thought possible in the last twenty-four hours. Especially since Claire has had a cold/allergies and isn't feeling good or easily going to sleep and Hazel woke up at 3:00 a.m. and lost her lunch all the way from our bedroom to the back door. It was a long and not so sleepful night. So what the heck am I doing writing here when I should be in the shower and then bed? Don't know so I shall go. Good Night!

Home Alone . . .

So Claire is at her grandparents today and I am home alone. Woohoo! So many things to do but I don't want to do any of them. I need to work in the garden, I need to till the vegetable garden, I need to weed the front, I need to mop the floor, clean off the kitchen table and do yet another load of laundry. The list goes on. But I don't want to (stomps foot like daughter will in the future) . . . does that make be a bad person? I don't think it does. I might be a bad person if I don't do any of it today but I think it is okay not to want to do any of it. We'll see what all gets done . . . hurumph . . . now I feel guilty. ugh.

My haven . . .

So I have decided to start a second blog. Why do you ask would I want to start a second blog? Well, because I must be crazy. I need one more thing to do, don’t I? Anyway, I am going to start a blog and you can read if you like. This is going to be a blog devoted to my real thoughts on what is going on etc and not my “PC” thoughts in the “Happy Hasslers.” The Happy Hasslers is really devoted to the family happenings (Claire) and a way for family to keep up and see pictures of her etc. It is a warm and fuzzy blog and I love writing it. It is about Claire after all. I am starting this blog for me and my thoughts and what I have come to call "Momeality". Oh, and I’ll probably talk about some pottery, gardening and other handy craft things as well. Please feel free to leave comments and start discussions. We’ll just have to see where this takes us . . .